The broadcaster said she hugged her own sons “that bit tighter” after making a harrowing programme about the 2015 murder of the 16-year-old schoolgirl.
As part of ITV’s Crime & Punishment season, the 46-year-old spoke to the victim’s father Darren and stepmother Anjie, which left her reflecting on her own life.
Susanna, who is mum to Sam, 15, Finn, 13, and Jack, 12, looks back at the tragic events surrounding the killing of Becky following her disappearance from her home in Bristol.
The case sparked a nationwide manhunt and her body was found 12 days later in a shed at the property of Anjie’s son Nathan Matthews, then 28, and his 21-year-old girlfriend Shauna Hoare.
“As a journalist, you deal with a lot of horror, so you develop a certain armour to switch your emotions off,” Susanna commented. “But there are times when that armour just crumbles.
“In those moments, you are no longer a journalist, you are someone who knows what it would be like. Your heart and soul just goes out to them. Afterwards, you realise you have been much more affected by it than you thought.”
Susanna went on: “It does make you go home and hug your own kids that bit tighter at night because you see the true devastation of what some parents experience.
“I am very grateful that I have my kids, and those simple pleasures like cooking with them or just hanging out become much more important with that in mind.”
Ahead of the one-off doc, Susanna added: “Obviously I don’t want my children to bear the responsibilities of my job, so you have to leave it at the door because you’d be a wreck, but sometimes I wonder where [the darker things] lodge in your brain.”
The Murder of Becky Watts: Police Tapes airs tonight at 9pm on ITV.
Published at Thu, 09 Nov 2017 11:06:00 +0000